Saturday, October 01, 2005
Y is it i feel so shitty..
the purpose of me doing wat i did..
was to get rid of the void..
but..
the void became bigger..
became alot worse..
its eating my life away..
losing my will..
my will to live..
my will to fight..
my will to believe..
it seems that i lost my able limb..
it was torn away from me..
from within..
did u realise it??
i dunno..
how can i right this wrong..
this wrong step..
the wrong choice of words..
the wrong time..
i know u'll come across this post..
but dunno whether u'll say anything abt it..
still waiting..
hoping to hear from u soon..
u know it..
email me..
i dun think i'll appear online for the nxt few days..
"If only life is like the movies,
i'll do that same scene 20 times over.
Just to make sure."
"Eternity is a long time,
Dunno how long i'll live.
I'll be waiting,
waiting for probably,
Eternity."
not now, not ever??
guess its juz one sided part of me..
den juz leave me to die..
posted @ 9:30 AM
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Friday, September 30, 2005
Hope everything is back to the way it is...
well..
watever tats happen..
this few days will be the deciding time..
the ball's in ur court..
u shld know who u r..
its either u wanna end everything or
u can try returning the ball..
i've waited before..
and i'll wait again if needed..
will go back to waiting in silence..
hoping time will do its work..
"If i were to disappear,
will i be in ur memory?
If i were to die,
will u shed a tear for me?
dun shed that tear,
cuz i dun wanna,
and couldn't bear to let u cry."
posted @ 8:16 AM
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Wednesday, September 28, 2005
well..
today is the 28th..
so i'm 19 years and one day old..
=)
hahahaha..
well.. a few things had happen..
finally done with filming..
manage to take up the risk..
and everything still seems well..
oh ya..
gotta thank ppl here..
thanx huimin and wei loon.. for the treat at carl's junior..
thanx to kim, sherry, sofy, marc, daphne, ariel for wishing me..
thanx to jef and asri for the belt..
thanx to muq, colin, joyce and xiao mei for the t-shirt..
(even though its not the one i wanted...)
but its the tot that counts..
and special thanx to xiao mei..
u should know wat u did..
=)
did i miss out anyone??
if i did.. sry ya..
=)
i have loads of nice friends..
who made the day enjoyable..
THANX!!!
posted @ 10:51 PM
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Sunday, September 25, 2005
Key to fate..
Regrets to be written..
Inoculated with dependence..
Sobriety of life..
Tentative steps taken..
Yearning of accompaniment..
Life's meaningless without them.. shld i take the risk??
posted @ 5:48 PM
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